It was a hardware failure.
For a while after my diagnosis with a chronic invisible illness, as the shock of the reality wore off, I realized I was lost. I went from “caregiver to care-given” in a matter of seconds. As a part of the society around us, we define ourselves accordingly and I no longer could consider myself a caregiver. I no longer was capable of giving care to myself much of the time let alone another I realized I had to redefine myself if I, me, my inner person, was to survive.
So, who was I?
Refusing to be a victim, it’s taken time, courage and self-confidence to realize I am not defined by my career but by my talents. What I had not seen in myself I was fortunate to have a potential employer see and offer me an opportunity of a lifetime. To go from hobbyist/amateur to professional graphics designer without any formal training or bachelors degree, as is required for most entry-level positions, is almost unimaginable but I did it none the less.
A while back I was attempting to restore my backed up data when the drive failed and I lost everything, all my digital photos, music, my design portfolio, our tax history, everything was gone. Recently, I stumbled upon a cloud drive to which I backed somethings up to. In it, I found a back up of my design portfolio I thought lost. There I found my letter of recommendation and it reminded me that I can be anything I want to be, this disease will not define me.